2014. it was then when i let my insecurities sprouted and growing ever since. i remember putting myself on a ridiculous diet, sampai masuk hospital. once for appendix, once for hypoglycaemia. because once again, i believed that i’m not kurus enough. and for me at that time, skinny equates beautiful. apo la makan roti wholemeat dgn salad je hari-hari weh. no offense for those who practice that, much respect for you. but that was not working for me. and my lovely friends needed to hear all my complaints about my non-existent weight problem. and worse, i blabbered and i did not bother to know what their responses are, what do they really think of me.   it was also during this time that i was entangled in a love problem. tried hard to impress the guy i thought i should devote my time for. i had a glimpse of how a long-distance relationship functions, and i don’t think i could be in one. i don’t have much problem communicating virtually, but i could not handle the waiting, t